Feelin' down

I am unexplicably angry/sad/disappointed/generally unhappy and annoyed. Maybe I didn't sleep enough last night. I did get up at 6 this morning to shlep my ass over to the surgeon's office for a nutrition meeting that was canceled but I didn't know. That was a little annoying. While I was waiting on the empty floor for the office to be opened, the elevator opened and out came 3 big guard dudes with some old man in an orange jumpsuit and leg irons. He also had that waist chain thing withhis hands cuffed to it. Crazy. Still annoyed I had to go all the way down there for nothing.

Know what made this morning's whole debaucle extra annoying? I have to go back there tonight at 6 for a support group that only happens once a month. Now, I think it will be interesting and I definitely want to hear what people say but I am so not in the mood to go back to 400 Parnassus for the second time today!

I also got a call back from one of the psychologists I called about my psych eval. She said she would want to have between 2 and 4 sessions with me at $155 each. She would also be paid for the time it takes her to write the letter. Yeah, that is so not happening. I think I will continue my way down the list of random psychologists until I find one who will do this for me in one session. I am sorry guys but in all my years I spent in therapy and the years I have spent knowing myself, I know I am prepared for this surgery. I know more about me than any psych eval is going to tell me and I am doign this as a stricty formality. If it seems like I am blowing it off, I am. I don't care about this test. I need a signed letter for insurance purposes and that is that.

You would think getting my new ipod mini today would put me in a great mood. Didn't do the trick.