Healing time.
Oy, this is taking some time. I am in a much better headspace than I was last time I wrote. I had my little mental breakdown and am on the way to recovery, I think. I had my check in appointment yesterday so I actually got dressed and left the house for the first time. If you are ever taking care of someone going through this, I really recommend getting them out of the house. Just tot he store or anywhere. It helps to feel more human.Sitting around in my pajamas all the time is not good for the mind. I had a weird bout of agorophobia when I was getting ready to go to the doctor yesterday. I got kind of scared and anxious about having to be out in the world around people. It scared me to feel like that. I think that is motivating me to get myself together and get out and do stuff while also making sure to rest and heal my body.
I finally saw myself in clothes - it was amazing. My body looks like anyone else's. And my little tush is really cute. :) I am excited to see how I fit into clothes and what size I actually wear. I am just doing the yoga pants thing for now. It is amazing to put pants on, though, and not have to cover my fat stomach. I don't have to worry about my saggy stomach in front. The pants just go on. I can't wait to get this last drain out so I can just put stuff on normally.
Yesterday was one week since surgery and I went in to the doctor for a check in. I did get 3 of the drains taken out yesterday at the doctor but one drain is still putting out a lot of fluid so it will be in for a while longer. Dr. Orringer was thrilled with the results. We are already talking about getting the next surgery planned. He said he is thinking that he might be ok with a scar down my middle so that he can take out a little last bit of skin that is right downthe center of my stomach. We'll see what happens. I am more than ready to get the next step started. It's weird - having this done has actually motivated me to exercise. I am really looking forward to getting back on the treadmill. I like the idea of my body not bouncing around when I work out. I am excited about that and excited to get the rest of my body matching this new me. The dr. said he was amazed at my progress and that i was healing os well and I was a great patient. Felt good. :)
Today i am gonna try to get to a meeting. I am just gonn aatry and get up and about as much as I can. Wish me luck!
I finally saw myself in clothes - it was amazing. My body looks like anyone else's. And my little tush is really cute. :) I am excited to see how I fit into clothes and what size I actually wear. I am just doing the yoga pants thing for now. It is amazing to put pants on, though, and not have to cover my fat stomach. I don't have to worry about my saggy stomach in front. The pants just go on. I can't wait to get this last drain out so I can just put stuff on normally.
Yesterday was one week since surgery and I went in to the doctor for a check in. I did get 3 of the drains taken out yesterday at the doctor but one drain is still putting out a lot of fluid so it will be in for a while longer. Dr. Orringer was thrilled with the results. We are already talking about getting the next surgery planned. He said he is thinking that he might be ok with a scar down my middle so that he can take out a little last bit of skin that is right downthe center of my stomach. We'll see what happens. I am more than ready to get the next step started. It's weird - having this done has actually motivated me to exercise. I am really looking forward to getting back on the treadmill. I like the idea of my body not bouncing around when I work out. I am excited about that and excited to get the rest of my body matching this new me. The dr. said he was amazed at my progress and that i was healing os well and I was a great patient. Felt good. :)
Today i am gonna try to get to a meeting. I am just gonn aatry and get up and about as much as I can. Wish me luck!
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