Ok, one person still emailed me back.

Fine. I got one person to email me back. And I got some reassurance from a friend. And I got up today and did my hair (which I am still not stoked on) and my makeup (a little better) and went and got waxed so I feel a bit more human. More like an attractive, female human, at least. It'll be a slow road, I am sure, but I will get my groove back.