I heart smoking.

But I still quit. I stopped last Thursday, August 16th, at 5:30pm. I am on the patch and think I am gonna step down to the 2nd stage this thursday. I am supposed to be nicotine free for 2 weeks before surgery so it'll have to be that way. I miss smoking. I really like smoking. It eases my mind and calms the nerves and gives me something to do when I have nothing else to do. I don't wanna crochet to replace it. I just wanna smoke. And eat. Ugh.

I got up and walked on the treadmill this am. I have almost done that a few times int he last week but today I really did. I only did 20 minutes but I got sweaty and I worked. So tomorrow I will do a little more. I really would like to lose 5 more pounds before surgery. I don't know if I can do it but I am sure as hell gonna try.

I have my preop appt on thursday at 1 so I'll let you know how it goes. I have an interview at some salon tomorrow afternoon that I probably won't work for but it is worht the effort. I have lunch plans today, meetings to go to, phone calls to make - I am very busy.I just need to keep getting my shit done and all will be well. I am assuming I will have to get a bunch of bloodwork done before surgery so that will fill up my time nicely in the next couple weeks. And I am going up north this weeknd to san jose to see my dad and to sf to see my lovely allison. I can't wait to give that girl a hug. It's been over a year now and it is weird wihtout her, although I feel like sh is always here. I will get to make some money doing my dad's wife' hair, and her daughter's highlights. I hope they know it costs some dough for that - their colors alone cost $40. I am thinking 60 for color, 80 for highlights and 40 for both cuts - that will be my discount. I have to give them a deal - it's my dad's fam. But I need the money and I am worht every penny - more, really. :)

Yay for things progressing!