Apparently, I am completely unattractive.

I put up an ad on Craigslist yesterday. A simple w4m, straightfoward, just wanna meet somebody to hang with ad. Got a few good responses that were grammatically correct, more than one sentence, not written in all caps, and not including a picture of their naked parts. I wrote a couple of them back, put in some pics of me or a link to my myspace so they could check out all the different pics I have on there - usual stuff. Not one single response. They all just disappeared. Huh. I had no idea I was so ugly. Not the boost to my ego I was looking for, I have to admit. I kinda had this idea in my head that, sans all the weight, I am kinda cute. I was apparently wrong. I am the kinda girl that you are stoked about meeting until you see what she looks like and then you never email back. I think 8 guys chose that option over the last 24 hours.

My ad was clear - I have short hair, I am tattooed, I am not your average gal. I guess I should have written that I am not as cute as you want me to be. Or I want to be, I suppose. Maybe sitting around, unemployed, without makeup on for the last 6 weeks is having an effect on me - who knows. Maybe I am cute but I have bad pics right now. Maybe I look like a 45 year old saggy formerly fat lady with grandma hair. That's kinda how I feel, at least. Blech. I hate this. In the last 6 weeks I have had one date and it sucked. The guy was a jerk and obviously completely uninterested fromt he second he walked in the door. And now this. Needing some ego stroking please.

Maybe I will wake up less ugly tomorrow. Maybe my hair will grow really quickly and I will get my cuteness back. Right now, nothing is looking so great. I think today, even though I have nothing to do and am trying to find a reason to leave the house, I will do my hair in a new way to try and offset the desperate need for a haircut, and actually put on makeup. Even if it is just to go sit at starbucks and read my encyclopedia. I need somethin', people. This blows.