Am I dreaming?

I swear I must be because I never thought this day would come. I officially have a surgery date for my Lower Body Lift (LBL). On one of my favorite days of the year, both my sisters' bdays, I will be starting my new life. September 12, 2007 at 6:30 in the early this gets done. I will finally feel like I actually did this, you know? I will get to see what really is going on under all this skin. It's a good day for it - Moll and Les's bdays, early fall (my fave time of year) and it is erev rosh hashanah (the night before the Jewish New Year) so I get to start my next year totally new. I am so excited. My mo and Molly are both off work for the couple days after, too, so it works out well. I told Molly i owe her a bday this year. :)

I was waiting for insurance to clear some stuff but they would have made me go to another doctor and for the amount I am paying, the percentage they would have covered, if any, didn't make it worth it. I am also on a time frame - I need to be healed in time to really start working by October 1ish so mid-September had to be the time. This means that, if work allows and everything goes ok, I could do phase 2 by mid-december and be new again for the new year. If I could go into 2008 feeling better about my body under my clothes, I don't even know... I try and explain how it wiuld make me feel, and I try to think I even know how it is going to make me feel but I have no idea. People who have had it done talk about this freedom they feel. God, to not have to be so worried about my skin... to not feel it all the time. That will be nice.

So I quit smoking yesterday - I have the patch on right now and got up early cuz of the crazy dreams the patch makes me have. I started my regimen of vitamin c and iron yesterday also. I have my pre-op appointment on August 23rd at 1pm - that is next Thursday, I believe. At the appointment I get all my actual info. I pay them a huge chunk of money, too. Ugh. I booked my 2 nights post-op at Serenity, this aftercare facility I have to stay at for 2 nights instead of the actual hospital (you can come visit me there!!) where they monitor me and deal with meds and all that good stuff.

I can't wait to get all the drawings and stuff on me so I can see where stuff is gonna get removed and moved to. I have been looking at peoples' blogs and stuff online to see their processes and results and have even found a few who have similar bodies to mine and it is amazing. I mean, I am gonna wake up without all this yucky skin hanging. No more front butt!! People seem to get amazing results. I am not expecting perfection, just a new start. It will be like losing the weight all over again. For real.

Off to my day. I have really been enjoying writing in my blog again. Glad I am back. :)