Weekend whatever

So I spent the weekend with some serious downtime. I spent yesterday on a bit of a people-free thing. I just wsn't in the mood to speak or explain ro anything much at all. I napped a bunch and didn't really leave my bed for muhc at all. Depression? Probably. Reasons why? Not entirely sure. You all know me and my funks I fall into. I am digging my way out of it, though. I got up this morning and immediately got to doing the dishes - it was awesome. Then, for some weird reason, i decided i wanted to cook something. I know - I am scary. I had this jar of sauce from TJ's for a one pot chili so i defrosted some chicken and cut it up. I threw some olive oil and chopped garlic in a pot and fried it up. It smelled so good in my house!! I threw in the chicken and browned it. Yep, I actually browned meat. I know. It's crazy. I was a little in awe of me too. I threw in a can of kidney beans and finally the sauce and let it cook for a half hour or so then simmered it for a bit longer. It is actually kinda good. Now I just need to freeze some so I have it for later.

Sundays are better than Saturdays for me for some reason. I can't wait for it to be tomorrow so I can get moving again and walk to work. I can't seem to motivate on the weekends to do much of anything. Give me too much time to think and I tend to dig myself into a hole. I am trying to dig my way out, don't worry. I am past the point where I will let myself wallow. Tomorrow, first thing, I am calling the therapists I got referalls for and setting up an appointment. I need some head shrinkage. It can't hurt and at this point, I am pretty sure it will do a lot for me. I need it.