Thinking back
When I first started this whole surgery adventure, I remmeber looking at people's blogs or websites or posts online and seeing things about how they had lost 100 poiunds in their first 6 months, blah blah blah. At 2 months out, losing like 30 pounds or whatever, I couldn;t imaghine this happening. In a million years. Here I am, 5 and a half months out, having lost like 86 pounds total and 65 since surgery. Am I at the high end of the scale? Definitely not. But I have managed to lose a considerable amount of weight. So what should I have done differently to speed this up? Exercise. I can;t say it enough. I would be so much lower than I am right now if I had just gotten past my laziness and started a regular exercise routine. I kick myself everyday that I didn;t start early and yet I still don't. Not sure what my problem is - I know I should do it. I have follow through issues. I know I do. Not everyone out there follows the best path for themselves - me especially. I have never done what's best for me - in any part of my life. I am a big self-sabotager. Not sure why, but I am. Well, either that or I am just the laziest person on earth. That could be it.
What else to share with the world? As of yesterday, I was at 198.4. That is exciting. My numbers are still going down. Hopefully I will never have to see that 2 infront of my weight ever again. I am down to a size 16 or so - some are too big, some are too small, but I am there. I can shop in some normal stores. I don;t have to go to the plus size section at old navy anymore. I can eat most stuff but still have issues with rice and bread.I shouldn;t be eating them anyway. I need to remmeber protein first, veggies second, carbs third, if at all. I still love food, is the problme. I love the taste and the feeling of chewing it and all that stuff. That will never go away, I suppose. Don;t expect it to, people. It doesn't.
Life is good. Life is going. Life is carrying me alng with it sometimes but I am holding on and managing to stay on the ride. I need to get back inthe driver's seat again. If I had a dollar for everytime I have thoguht something like that and not doen it, I wouldn;t have to stay at my crappy job anymore.
What else to share with the world? As of yesterday, I was at 198.4. That is exciting. My numbers are still going down. Hopefully I will never have to see that 2 infront of my weight ever again. I am down to a size 16 or so - some are too big, some are too small, but I am there. I can shop in some normal stores. I don;t have to go to the plus size section at old navy anymore. I can eat most stuff but still have issues with rice and bread.I shouldn;t be eating them anyway. I need to remmeber protein first, veggies second, carbs third, if at all. I still love food, is the problme. I love the taste and the feeling of chewing it and all that stuff. That will never go away, I suppose. Don;t expect it to, people. It doesn't.
Life is good. Life is going. Life is carrying me alng with it sometimes but I am holding on and managing to stay on the ride. I need to get back inthe driver's seat again. If I had a dollar for everytime I have thoguht something like that and not doen it, I wouldn;t have to stay at my crappy job anymore.
posted by Neely at 3:33 PM
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