An Update on the To-Do List

In August of 2005, I posted a to-do list of things I want to do post-surgery. Here's the update:

Cross my legs - done!
shop at betsey johnson
sit in the middle on an airplane - done! I was comfy and fine. And I can put the tray down now, too!!Ride piggyback
run
live on a hilly street
sit in any resaturant booth - DONE!
sit in a hammock with someone
sit in any seat on the train - People never move away from me anymore
use a regular bath towel - Except the ones at the Confort Inn, I do ok.
buy shoes that are pretty instead of comfortable - So fucking done.
go to vegas with 20 bucks and last an entire weekend
not fill out an entire chair - Chairs get oddly bigger when you lose weight
paint my own toenails comfortably - done and will be doing so tonight
try snowboarding/surfing
get up easily from indian style on the floor - Done. Getting out of the bath is a cinch now too.
hike - I want to and know I can, just haven't done it.
go to an amuseument park and not worry about fitting on all the rides - Know I can, haven't gone yet.
have a "little black dress"
borrow a sweatshirt/jacket from someone regardless of who it is
wear heels to work - Every day, baby!!
hop a fence (Why did I want to do this?? lol)
play on the swings at the park - I need to go to the park soon!!
eat in public and not feel like I am being stared at
do online dating and be overwhelmed by emails (Not really caring about this anymore)
run into someone from my past and not be recognized
sit and hug my knees
do yoga
see my shoulder blades
ride a bike
have "one size fits all" fit me too!
fit into a hospital gown - Done!
dance all f'ing night again
get picked up and swung around - picked up, yes. Swung? Gimme a few more months.
rollerskate in the park
see an outfit in a store window and know I could just go in and buy it
Get a mani/pedi and not be uncomfortable - Know I can, now I just need to get my ass in for one.

I feel good. I feel accomplished. Do I have more thngs I want to do? Absolutely. Do I know I still have a very long way to go? Sure. Am I proud of what I have accomplished so far? Totally.

I am feeling like my journey has taken a new path. I am strivign for health as much as vanity now. I don;t just want to be thin, I want to be healthy. I want to be active. I am renewing my commitment ot take my protein everyday and my vitamins and my calcium. I am going to try and eat more diverse foods and make healthier choices. I am going to make a decision to start exercising again - whatever I might choose as that exercise. I want to come out of this as strong as I can. I want to come out of this a better me, not just a smaller me.