food stuff and me
I went through a weird phase a couple weeks ago - I didn;t really eat. I had no appetite at all. I would say it was really like 4 weeks ago but it lasted for a few weeks. I was content to live on lattes and protein drinks. I had no desire for solid food at all. I definitely got a lot of shit for it from certain people (Jason, ahem!) and have been labeled a non-eater. I do eat. I don't eat as much as I should on some days, or what I should be eating, I guess.
I really do try. I am now one of those freaks who will "forget" to eat. Who the hell does that?? Well, I do, now. I have tried to just be all strict about my foods every day - protein drink as soon as I get to work, latte mid morning, cottage cheese and pineapple for lunch, protein or string cheese at like 4 (sometimes another latte), and then dinner. Now dinner can get a little shifty. Most of the time I try to at least have soup. I do end up with leftovers a lot, obviously. Last week it was beans and cheese. This week it is Chinese food. I just wish I cooked. I wish I could say I was having leftovers of chicken breast and green beans or delicious homemade veggie soup or something.
I keep saying I will try to do that kind of stuff and it still just fall sby the wayside. Where di my whole recommitment thing go? I did have 2 protein drinks yesterday - that was a recommitment. And I will do the same today. I am trying to find my energy in vitamins and protein rather than caffeine. Baby steps, right?
I just need to keep looking at each day as its own. If I look at it as the rest of my life ti gets overwhelming and small at the same time. It is easy to skip a vitamin if i know i will take one every other day for the rest of my life. I can;t be thinking like that. I need to do this every day. Yes, it is hard. Much harder than I though tit was gonna be. 82 pounds, though. 82 pounds since August. I think I can do what I need to do today for 82 pounds.
I really do try. I am now one of those freaks who will "forget" to eat. Who the hell does that?? Well, I do, now. I have tried to just be all strict about my foods every day - protein drink as soon as I get to work, latte mid morning, cottage cheese and pineapple for lunch, protein or string cheese at like 4 (sometimes another latte), and then dinner. Now dinner can get a little shifty. Most of the time I try to at least have soup. I do end up with leftovers a lot, obviously. Last week it was beans and cheese. This week it is Chinese food. I just wish I cooked. I wish I could say I was having leftovers of chicken breast and green beans or delicious homemade veggie soup or something.
I keep saying I will try to do that kind of stuff and it still just fall sby the wayside. Where di my whole recommitment thing go? I did have 2 protein drinks yesterday - that was a recommitment. And I will do the same today. I am trying to find my energy in vitamins and protein rather than caffeine. Baby steps, right?
I just need to keep looking at each day as its own. If I look at it as the rest of my life ti gets overwhelming and small at the same time. It is easy to skip a vitamin if i know i will take one every other day for the rest of my life. I can;t be thinking like that. I need to do this every day. Yes, it is hard. Much harder than I though tit was gonna be. 82 pounds, though. 82 pounds since August. I think I can do what I need to do today for 82 pounds.
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