when it's awful...

...it's really, really shitty. Too much at one time can break anyone, even the strongest of us. The only thing that can hurt more than whne you yourself are hurting is when someone you love is hurting more. You just wanna make it all better and zap yourself to them in an instant, if only to do their dishes and sit on the couch with them. That isn't usually an option. I wish I had that power. I wanna make it all go away and I can't. I can make people laugh and forget sometimes; that is a gift. I don't get that allthe time though. Sometimes I just have to console and hope I said something that means something. I usually don't. I wish I could make everyone out there stop blaming themselves for problems that have nothng to do with them. Outside influences can be the worst offender sometimes. They can make you feel incapable and unlovable. They can take the strongest, most incredible people in the world and reduce them to dust. Why do we let that happen to us? Why do we second guess ourselves rather than the situation we are in or the people involved? No matter what, we are all victims of it. We have all shot ourselves down over issus that have nothing to do with who we are. I am as guilty as anyone, I know. I don't believe half the shit I write here.