The Grocery Store

Tonight I made my first post-op trip to the grocery store. It was needed - I didn't have anything to eat at home (unless you count the 12 cans of chicken broth I bought pre-op and haven't used). I would say it was successful. I probably bought more than I needed but I don't think I bought anything I can't eat. I went protein heavy - cooked chicken in many forms, cooked turkey, tofu dogs, soy ground beef - and definitely resigned myself to the fact that I don't cook. I didn't get any raw meat and I think that is how it will stay for the time being. I am not going to cook. I hate to cook. And the thought of cooking makes me just not want to eat. Did I mention I have lost my appetite, finally? I mean, sure, Taco Bell sounds ok but I don't crave it the way I was before. This is much easier this way.

Well, that is really all I have to report. My scale broke so I won't have any weight updates anytime soon. I need to go to Target and get a new one sometime soon. For now I will just go by how big my clothes are getting. And they are definitely getting too big. My jeans are taking on that "load in the pants" look again. That I am gonna need to figure out cuz I wear them every day. Those 2 pairs of pants that fit aren't working for me cuz one needs ot be hemmed and the other is just oddly uncomfortable. They are from before they discovered low rise and they just cut off the waistband so it kind of cuts into you like a thread through clay. It hurts. Myabe I will wear them when they get a little looser on me. We'll see. I am assuming I will need to spend some money on clothes inthe near future. So be it.

Last thing, I am getting way excited for my January Vegas trip for Andrea's bday. I got this vision of us at the blackjack table today and I got really giddy. I haven't been there with her since June so I am needing some mega gambling time with my girl. We are also gonna go to Forty Deuce the Friday night we are there - we already have tix - and I am way excited for that. I am thinking I will have some small adventures in alcohol there. I know it won't be anything like it usually is so we will see how I do. I certainly don't wanna get sick and I know, if need be, I can always just be the bottled water girl. Eh. As weird as it sounds to me, the alcohol isn't the biggest part of vegas for me, sitting at those tables with Andrea is. We have the most amazing time there. We just mesh. We always wanna be doing the same exact thing at the same exact time. Eek! I just got so excited again picturing us sitting at the Stinky Camel, or whatever it is called, playing video poker. Good fuckin' times.

That's it from me. I am off to a very early bed time. I woke up at 4:30 this mrongin and couldn't go back to sleep. It sucked.