Adventures in new foods

i think this may take a little longer than I thought. Normal is still pretty far away. It will be three weeks on Tuesday and I guess I am starting to see long term. Introducing new foods into my life has gone smoothly at first but has since gone kind of bad. I need to be a little less ambitious in my choices, I guess. I went out for my first meal on Saturday and overdid it, I guess. I got Huevos Rancheros (eggs over beans and cheese, basically) with hashbrowns. It is a lot harder to gauge the amount of food I am eating when I am eating out of a normal portion size (normal for restaurants, at least). I either ate too fast or too much and ended up feelign really shitty. I got nauseous and dizzy and sweaty and sleepy. It was far form pleasant, I have to say. Weirdly, though, abotu 20 minutes later my stomach made this gurgling noise and I felt A LOT better. I think my pouch was emptying otu some of the food I had out into it earlier. It was a good lesson. From now on, I will get a small plate with my meal and just put what I am going to eat on that plate. This way, I can do some portion control and not get sick. Let's hope it works.

The rest of the weekend was prety bad, eating-wise. Everything I ate pretty much made me sick. I think I am going back to basics. 2 meals of protein shake and maybe one meal of chicken or something plain like that. No more adventures in indian food or anything greasy at all. I can;t do it anymore. It is definitely the high fat stuff that is doing it, I think. I can;t say I wsn;t warned. High fat does the same thing as sugar - this is called dumping. It's a gross name but it is pretty f'ing accurate, I gotta say. It feels awful. It helps to reinforce my whole no sugar thing, though. I think it might be even worse with sugar.

I knew this was going to be a bit of trial and error and I am finding stuff otu the hardway at times. I am doing pretty good overall, though, I think. From my weight in the beginning of August when this all started, I am down almost 40 pounds. Since the surgery I am down about 15, I think. Not too bad for what i have had to go through. I do have moments of wondering if I did the right thing. I assume as time passes and the weight comes off I will start to see that this was absolutely the right thing to have done. i am waiting for my complaints to start being about waiting so long to do this - that would definitely be better.

So tomorrow I think I am back to shakes and soup, at least for a couple of days til my stomach settles a little. I am doing well with my meds and my vitamins but I think I need to up my protein cuz I have been really tired lately. I have been at around 50g a day and I think I need to go up to 75. I am gonna try, at least. It's tough sometimes but I know I need it. I can feel the difference when I don;t have enough of soemthing. My water intake needs to go up too. I will try to make this week as perfect as I can and see how it makes me feel. Hopefully I will really notice the difference and it will motivate me to keep it up. We'll see.